Who am I in the puzzle of life?

When we look at a puzzle we see different shapes, shads and colors.
Most people start with the edges and work themselves in then the middle pieces, flat colors and the same shaped cut.
They get to tumble countless times in the box until they make it to their spot.
Yes we all have a purpose in this world and we play a very unique in specific part. we come in different shapes, colors and contrasts some people walk the edges were thousands of people visit to see the beautiful water, yes they are popular... but they get stepped on the most at the same time. that also is a part of there purpose.
Then there different colors, without them it would be only filed with darkness.
Different shapes, without their turns it would be a long boring strait ride, but when we get together as a whole, its curves and beauty is untouchable and our understandings are in awe!
We don't know who Hashem favors, we travel in a box that gets mixed up till we fall into our specific spot and then for history to come, and learn from our story, our ups and downs, and at the end its beauty of fulfillment.
I believe Hashem favors the one who dose good and we all have the opportunity to sit in that seat!

one + = love

One tear drop can chance everything,
one listening moment will make our day ,
one hug can build it all,
one smile can affect millions,
one hand can lift the universe,
one look in each-others eyes can power the city,
one kiss will bond us forever,
tonight I look into your eyes and I say, I LOVE YOU with all my heart!
Good night my dear! :)

Time and its perception.

It don't matter how long one waits, wait will still sit there when you finally arrive
but he might look different then you imagined.

Loovvveeee!

I love love and love loves me. 
So love, I deeply love you and I sure feel your smiling love!

Love, loved and I always will :)

Reboot.

There is a time in life when the clouds fall and all hidings reveal,

Some proud and some not so, but it can fall only that much before 

gravity takes its land,

Every oops has a root, find it and reboot!

A smile thus the biting cold

Sometime life smiles at the same time I smile.

It is then when I realize that it's all good and so it will be in the coming,

but when winter came and life's smile went and hid under the blankets to worm from the biting frost, I then understood that "I" am the one making life smile,  not the other way around!

The good finding in stubbornness.

A blessing.
Yes I was blessed with the gift of stubbornness,
and so I pray to the almighty to continue to strengthen my heart to use it for good.

28 year ago, I was put on a mission, the battle preparations took me nine months.
When I was ready and entered the battle filed I realized what it is happening and I strongly feared my journey. But there was no going back,
I knelled, and I took upon me to go through it and penetrate this flaming world of darkness and destruction, with the goal to survive.
I passed by many countries, states, towns and villages. In some I battled, in some traded, and in some I used to hide out.
No... Sadly I did not win it all.

I found myself under the sword and was be-slaved for many years.
Throughout time my scars and bruises piled to a high count, it became hard to remember the story beneath it all.

One day an opportunity passed bye so I hoped on and I escaped the darkness. I ran faster than my feet can take me but this time I was running with my soul, a secret I learned and came to understand though my heard times in slavery,
a tool that has endless strength only if continuously plugged with an old gift that Hashem gave me when I was still a young cadet,  "the gift of stubbornness".

Thank you so much Hashem for all you send my way, I know that I do not know and I Understand that I do not understand but I believe!!!

Always and forever.

Tonight's pain is with no word's trapped deep inside, all I can do is listen to my crashed heart, and hope..

Dear father my king and the king of infinity, I will return again and again till I make it with true love!  
 
With Love,
 ~Beenie

The mountain climber.

The mountain is with no end but if this is my mission in life I will go till I can no more, and then I will ask my dear to take me from there.
And with no fear I will look down and hope not to fall to its steep and crushing bottom. Although... if that what is in my path, I will do it again with no crying over what was.

Hashem please help me find and befriend the good and know who is so, so we can continue to grow!

I bless you all to feel, and hope you do not think nor relate to it as a curse,
it can be hard but the outcome is filled with truth and happiness.

If you are a friend and see me falling please do not be afraid to say/hint me that you think or know that I am losing my happiness, I will be grateful :)

Yes life is short but long enough to enjoy!!
Let’s party in our happiness! :)

A hidden path!

The beautiful sadness of this world rapped in a sweet and loving towel.
My heart is filled with you and yet I grow to understand your amazing insite of the deep and meaningful way.

"ALWAYS LOVE"

All-ways, Forever, With no exception,
It makes my heart cry and my eyes tear but my understanding is smiling, longing to see and understand more of you!

With love
The voice in me.

Do you like mushrooms?

If love would make one melt I would be the moist of the ground and perhaps turn into a mushroom umbrella, BUT... I will have LOVE :)

Be your mushroom umbrella and love will return in-favor.

A letter to my love!

My dear love!
Will you help me fight my inner battle?
Will you stand with me till the end of wars? Patch me up, hand me my sword and send me out to fight again?...
Will you protect my soul when I fall under the enemy?
You are my love and the love of me. Please hold me and polish me when I am gone so when I return I will be, ones again.

Love! You are my body and soul and the glue that holds them together, you are the blood stream in my veins and the hammer of my heart! I hope I can give you a little of what you give me.
You are my love in every form and I will never let go.

With a gentle smile,
~Beenie.

Emunah holds the missing together.

A chain of try's, 

A missing link of failure,

A reconnect of success of not giving up to try again.

That makes the missing link a newly connect, which balance the chain with no open slots, although when you look at it it looks like a chain in suspension.
It is STRONG, it is HOT, it is YOU, it is ME, it is COLD but cannot be FOLD...
Keep climbing up its rings and don't worry of its see-through links.

 ----   EMUNA!   ---- 

Love vs Hate

If hate can destroy cities Imagine what love can build!
I will build love so love can build more, 

And when we are ready we will close our eyes and kiss one-another good bye.
Love, we will meet on the other side!

Everest Base Camp Trek: Day 12, Cho La Pass to gokyo.

It was a cold but a fresh morning, I curl out from my blanket, still half in my clothing from yesterday, the night was too cold to change into something clean, I slide into my pants trying not to move too much hoping that the cold won't notice that I woke.
It was still dark, I thank Hashem for letting me enjoy my Neshama another day,
It is 3:34am
Boots, jacket, pum-pum hat, bathroom, brush teeth, gloves, breakfast.
Breakfast was plane rice leftover from last nights super, it was partially ice from the unforgiving cold,
I walk out side to greet the beautiful night stars who are still relaxing and overlooking the thin layer of snowflakes that fell not long before.
Next to the small stone wall lodge with a thin metal roof held down by a few rocks, is a high peak hiding in the morning clouds, I was looking at its wonderful white coat like it's trying to warm up from the long night.
It is 5:12am, and time to throw my backpack on and leave for a long and hard 9-hour hike over the Cho-la pass, down to Dragnag, over the Glacier, up to Gokyo, witch sits 15,977.69 feet high where I will settle for night 13 of my journey.

This picture was taken on the high point of the Cho-la pass (17,718,42 ft) around 8:30am 5/15/2014.
Putting Tefilen, It was truly a wonderful feeling.

May I remember Hashems beautiful creation!

Himalayas, Everest Region. 2014

CLIMBING HIGH!

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Time's we say, a new day, a new beginning. 

tonight is the time of no wait, it is already the process from a new past, created by its powerful goals of love!
ahhh love!!! :)
Thank you so much Hashem for always showing me the way and recognition of its light, so I can grow. and when I fall, to be able to hold on to its primal past
and build from-in, its beautiful future!

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LOVE IN 2083.

Every time my eyes meet's her being my heart melts as I just saw her for the first time, it is year 2083 we are at each-others side for 68 years wrinkled and old
but in our hearts we are still young kids.
We do everything together no matter if we agree or not, Hashem is our core therefor there are not much that differs in our ways.
She is my life, my love and my every moment, we may be wrinkled and weak but the one heart we share is strong like an ancient soul filled with wisdom and passion.
We hold hand when we fall asleep and our eyes meet when we wake up to an umbrella smile on our lips and a heart who happys that we made it to another beautiful
day, to know and spend time together!
I am only 28 years old now but what is life without true love?

The unround cycle of life!

Open ur eyes and smell life, open your ears and leave some tears. Take a baby step and don't look back but remember your past due to its facts.
Forward takes you high, high brings you low, low reminds you, reminders build you, buildings are strong, strong is what you are, you are everything and everything is for you!
Thank you Hashem I so deeply love you!!!