I am love tall.

If Love and longing for higher would build me tall, then I would have been the tallest person in the universe.
Well not really...  But I am longing to long in such ways!

Life is way too short...

They can break my heart but they can't take my soul.

Life is short...

Yes, some will take, And some will take a lot.
But life is too short.

Some will drain, And some will drain it all.
But life is too short.

Some will steal, and some will grab a palm full.
But life is too short.

Some will pretend, and then let you hang.
But life is too short.

Some will embarrass you and feel in-right
But life is too short

Some will and some will not.
Some will not and some will.
But life is too short.

I will stand with love!
I will conquer!  
And I will give again!

what will you do with yours?  Life is very short.

Trust of Balance.

Life is really hard and it is almost like its talking to me in code.
When I grow it grows with me and when I fall it falls apart. literally...
Sometimes I feel that I really understand the meaning of "the whole world was built for you".  I see it and live it daily. it's really scary to know that one holds such a strong responsibility But yet Hashem give me back my Neshama and says.
I trust in you and I put the whole world on your shoulder because you are strong enough to hold it, and yes I know that you are a newbie and at times it will wobble from side to side.
That's love, trust, and I have that in you.

Hashem I love you from the depths of my heart and with tears and a choking throat I take this world on my shoulders and with a smile I continue on not knowing if I will succeed today.
Thanks for giving me another chance, another day, another moment of breath.
It is a privilege and an honor to live and to walk aside you!
Thank you for trusting in me and trusting me with such a precious Jewel!

May I always remember this!!

A relationship with Hashem.

I'm am sooo inspired by your magnificent creation!
Thank you so Hashem for giving me the opportunity to see life and your beautiful world through eyes of inspiration.
Yes life is difficult in-itself but the outcome is rewarding when holding on through Emunah.
Hardships doesn't mean that happiness needs to go and sadness does not have too = in destruction.
I will not be a slave to society's decision of thought and their way of response, I will fight among the minority where we are all happy no matter of which side the World Turns.
I love you my dear father!  Thank you for holding my hands when I am going through the tough. With a deep understanding you stand by my side no matter who I am and how I turned out to be. You love me unconditionally!
And thanks for walking with me with your hand my shoulder like two lovebirds who don't want to part, especially when things are more upbeat in my life. It gives me a sense of direction in a journey that I am not fully familiar with yet. I feel safe in a world of chaos and I feel loved even in the long winter nights.
I love you with all I have and I will work every moment of all the moments to maintain and to build our relationship to be the closest and most heartfelt relationships of all time!

if only hearts could speak

If only hearts could speak. if only minds would have the strength to evaluate. if only we would understand how one falling tear is more then the world's largest concoction of dinemite..
Dear Hashem! my love to you is not writable nor explainable but you know my heart, my thoughts and my heading. please take me into your wings and guide me and show me the way and give me the strength to lead my self there.  be the armer for my internal battles and help me grow in our relationship that
I so long.
please shine on me the light of the Heavens and fill my desire to good. help me be greater then the me and let me not be afraid of my hearts cry.
I love you so much!!
please help me see though the dark cloud and be the me I can truly be.

With love ~Beenie.

To Truly Live!

We live only one time to remember.
Nothing will come with us when we leave. Life is so precious, every breath is a new gift, a continues love kiss for the almighty.
Yes!! live like no tomorrow and do something good even its small due-to it will make the difference of your smile when you lay in white.
We only take the truth and the hard sweaty work that we embed in our soul, the love that you gave to your one and beautiful surroundings. A good word that you already forgot that you sent to the other side.
Live in loving and love will be your candle, it will light your path after the body will leave to its belonging.
Now when I close my eyes, not knowing what I will see, I ask and pray to you Hashem, please give me back my Nashama with truth and health, give me the power to see the good in all and make the right decisio. Help me see you in everything and in the times that I am blind to my self. please put me on your wings and guide me to where I need be and when I fall lift me up and softly ask me with love to try again like you did so meany times before, let me hear you and know that it is you even it means standing alone, witch reminds me that you are always by my side.

I will die indeed. I  just hope it will be with the right ingredients to truly live!

Yes It Is Booming.

Go out and be one of the early birds to take in one of the most amazing moments.
the hibernating world of nature is coming to life and most don't even know it but yet it dose not hesitate from doing its work

We live in backwards a world.. don't wait till you hear your self talking to you and saying... wow I didn't even see it happen
but there are leaves on the trees. it got green so fast!!
Go out and learn to tap-in and adapt, and remember "that this moment will never be here again". 

(A conversation between Beenie & Beenie's mind)

A Time-bound Simulator.

A teardrop,  a single teardrop fell to the ground and shattered to countless little crystals
The sound of a fading Heart beat was looking out from within, waiting for my breath to inhale a new dose of life.
It was quite, deep and still, the drying lines from the last passing tear screamed in me.

I wish it wouldn't have stopped regardless of the pain of its journey.

It was clear to me that I am at the end and this door is about to close leaving everything I have and know behind.

Yes.. I was born in a world that is half and so it made me incomplete.
I traveled the distance and spoke to both sides, I built worlds and distorted universes, I lived in hiding and spilled it for all to know, I ran after the one in me only to find that I am, I am, I AM.

Now I can truly say that I WAS and yes, I sure hope to be!!!

A tear falls and so another follows. PumBoom. PumBoom. PumBoom... my heart is singing again the beautiful song of Hashem's wonders, only this time, I know that I can be, all of me.

Why wait to find out the hard way??

Live life to your fullest and always remember that you are what you allow yourself to be!

Back To Back.

A two-way street sometimes brings you together but if you keep driving it takes you further apart.
Respect is a distance healer even though you are back to back...
back to back is already a great connection!

Life is not that strange as we are to her...