You are amazing!!
I wish I would have words or an action of comfort. But I don't know you and I don't know the things that make you feel better.
I don't know what you are going though and I sure don't know the pain you are feeling.
But I do know that you are amazing! And that you stand with incredible values. Regardless of the ups and downs you encounter on your path, you will make it!
People with the connection and knowledge that you have make it. They have to make it. YOU have to make it! And so you will!
Pain is a living thing and so is love
Anger is love in a misguided form. Find your center and choose your side.
I know, the work that it entails is not easy, especially when all rumbles with unrest and you are praying, crying, begging, hoping and longing. Longing for the one that will hold you, understand you, respect you, and build your potential as one so you can see yourself, and by that see and serve Hashem in full.
I am hopeful for you and I feel that good things are in the works. Hang in there and keep on doing and living the great you that you are!